Liz McGowen Blog

Last night I went to an amazing group, hosted by Fred.

Fred is a bit of an expert on the Law of Attraction. I’ve been interested in this for quite some time, reading and listening and trying to add it to my practice of meditation during the last few months.

Well, last night I was able to ditch the kids for a couple of hours and go to a meeting hosted by Fred.

Wow. Clarity. The discussion was amazing, and I have to say that Fred set such a warm tone for all of us. We talked about getting caught in the dreaded “loop” — no, Chicagoans, not that loop, although I dread that one too! — and Fred offered a bit of advice.

About mid-way through the meeting I felt like the heavens opened up and clarity arrived. Well, for a moment. All the signs are here. You are here, and you are one of the signs.

How fun is that?

The path is illuminated. I just have to stop going down my “should” path and stick with the one I’m being shown. The should path is so enticing and comfortable, and it’s the one everybody is on. I know, I’ve talked about the should path before. But I keep ignoring my own advice.

It’s… really…. hard… to… step… off… the… should… path…!

If that makes no sense, don’t worry. I’m still trying to make sense of it.

I also realized that one of the most intense feelings I’ve had since starting my own business has been fear. Fear of failure. Fear of how others will see me. Fear that clients won’t find me. Fear that clients will find me but that I will somehow disappoint them. Fear of paying the mortgage. Fear of my accountant. Fear of having to get a real job. The list of fear goes on and on.

And you know what? As a result of those fears, I’ve attracted all those things that I fear.

As someone said last night, “Fear is faith in a negative direction.”

It’s like an example from our discussion last night, of the person running for a touchdown. Everybody is cheering and the person is running like mad. The only problem is he’s going the wrong way.

This morning I got up early and meditated, then took a few minutes to journal about what is working. So much is working:

• I get to write and use my creativity on my blog in a way that’s helpful to others every day
• I’m connected with so many other amazing people all over the globe in a community that’s discussing growth and change through blogs, on twitter, and in all sorts of other fun ways (including my girls in our “happiness project group”)
• I’m creating more peace, happiness and love for myself, my family, and my friends
• I’m able to spend the time I need to with my kids
• I’ve written the “Elephant Manifesto” that I’m going to share with the world soon, and I can hardly wait for you to read it
• Somehow, we’re managing to make ends meet and raise happy kids

There are a few things I do want:

• I want to have enough money that I don’t need to worry about it (I have an amount in mind, but it seems way too icky to share that)
• I want to have coaching clients who will pay me and who will work with me openly and honestly (again, it seems too icky for me to arbitrarily set an amount that someone must pay me to get my help or a time frame — that seems like a judgement, like saying “no, your problem isn’t for me” simply because you can’t afford some amount I say I must have. Yuck. I’m not going there.)
• I want to be able to help others in ways that are caring and fun and meaningful for both of us
• I want a housekeeper who will clean the bathroom (well, if I’m asking, I might as well get what I really want!)

As I said, I’m still trying to make sense of all this.

I’m also realizing that I’ve been hoarding a few things that I’ve written and that may be helpful to others, so my priority in the next few days is to get those up here and into the universe.

And to focus on being grateful for you. You are my light along the path. Thank you.

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